I watched this tonight and I feel so conflicted.
I’m a paediatric nurse and I can absolutely attest to how dangerous some working conditions are when the wards are understaffed.
On one ward I worked on, some of the sickest babies (almost HDU level) weren’t even being cared for by nurses, and instead were being assigned to nursery nurses. They were obviously terrified about that level of responsibility and they knew it shouldn’t be happening, but when they spoke up to Management they were just dismissed.
When I was a junior nurse I was being assigned to look after babies whose medical needs were well outside out of my abilities (babies with tracheostomies etc where nurses have to have extra training to look after them), and I had to really stand my ground and refuse to be their allocated nurse. In those instances I was treated with disdain for being “difficult”.
I was put in situations when I was pressured to sign off on giving drugs that I didn’t feel comfortable giving (insulin being one of them actually), and again, any sign of resistance or standing up against what is being asked of you and you get a black mark against your name. You’re seen as the trouble maker.
There is a reason why there is such a push to try and encourage whistle blowing in the NHS…. because they know how much bad practice goes on but also how scared nurses are to stand up against it.
I was once sent to a NICU as they were short staffed - and all NICU nurses should have extra training on top of their paediatric nursing qualification due to how specialist the knowledge and care is - which obviously I hadn’t done. I was left in charge of extremely sick babies, completely unsupervised and completely out of my depth. I was absolutely terrified that something was going to happen and I knew that if something had, I’d have had no back-up or support. After about 5 hours on the unit I told the manager that I didn't feel safe, that I didn’t feel the babies were being given the safest care they deserved and I requested that I go back to my own ward and that I be replaced with a much more senior and experienced nurse, or at least one with neonatal experience. You can imagine how poorly that went down.
People have this idea that nursing is a loving and caring and profession, and the huge, huge majority of the nurses are, but the actual structure of the NHS, the bullying, the lack of compassion amongst team members, the lack of support…. It’s a very bleak picture when you scratch below the surface. The safety of the babies and the protection of the staff is usually not at the top of the priority list and it’s frightening.
Nurses are often put in extremely vulnerable positions with absolutely nobody to support them, feeling completely out of their comfort zones and feeling too scared to ask for advice or for help.
And the part of the documentary when they spoke about how staff nurses treat students, and how some Consultants treat junior staff, well I remember those days too. Again, it’s all just part of the bullying culture that goes on.
I’m not saying Lucy is innocent, I don’t think anyone will ever know the truth, but I certainly don’t think it’s as cut and dry as Lucy being some evil serial killer. She probably did play a role of some sort, but I imagine there were also factors within the working environment that contributed as well - be it to the actual causes of the deaths, or damage caused to Lucy’s mental or emotional state that led to her making the decisions she did, or any errors she made.