i think I just need to get this out. Two daughters, nearly 18 and 21. Eldest at uni back for Xmas but stayed in the pub on Xmas day, got totally drunk and missed her Xmas lunch with us. Youngest daughter looks up to her and so totally distraught she chose the village alcoholics not us to spend her day with (us equally too). Husband is the peacemaker but weak, similar issues with getting drunk at social gatherings. Blames his alcoholism on what it’s like at home. Terrible role model.
youngest struggling a lot with a levels, 2 failed driving tests and hoping to go to uni but tbh it’s looking bleak.
I feel like I am holding this shitshow together (badly) and just want a break - short term or long term idk really. Feeling like a total failure of a mum.