Hi
He’s 19 and relocating to a new job overseas. He’s going with a colleague, (who’s also a friend).
He is very excited about getting out of the town we live in (nothing wrong with it but his peer group for the most part have moved away/are at university) and he recently split with long term girlfriend.
I’m happy for him, I know he’s sensible but I spent most of yesterday crying, feeling so sad. I’ll miss him so much.
I have read a few other threads on here and I know he’ll be okay and I know I’ll be okay. Just need to know that this feeling is normal and that I’ll get used to it. It doesn’t seem like long ago that he was a child. All my dreams of motherhood (after several miscarriages) came true when he was born and I loved the times we had when he and his sister were young. I think that I suffer with a lot of anxiety around my children (which may be rooted in the miscarriages and my parents deaths which happened when my children were very young).
I’m separated from his dad so I feel a bit alone and don’t really want to burden my friends. From the outside, it’s an exciting new chapter and a normal part of life. I suspect that I have become very afraid of change. I’m 52.
Thank you for reading.