I have 2 beautiful sons 10 and 12 years old. My 12 year old has turned into a violent show off nightmare and he hurt his brother so bad I called him a cunt. I am the worse mum ever and I hate parenting. I actually love my kids but I HATE being mum and feel ashamed to admit that. Judge as you're entitled too but I don't know what to do anymore.
I do everything I can they're washed fed taken tonclubs in good schools have manners but I feelnlike I can't do it anymore.
Believe it or not I love them perhaps too much and when they're asleep I stand Iver them and cry apologising to their beautiful sleeping faces for being such a shit mum.
Apologies for language I am at the end of my tether feeling alone and ashamed of my conduct and language and hating on myself.
I have a wonderful husband and the blessing of the 2 boys. I work full time the cost of living terrifies me and I feelnlike someone is kneeling on my chest.
I hate life but and can see no joy in all the joy I'm surrounded with.
I'm not selfish I'm selfless but my parent resentment is obvious towards the children now and I hate myself.
I'm posting here just to get this feeling off ju chest.
Feel free to be honest I need honest, pointers anything.