I'm so angry and upset. I have to sit in PowerPoint type training all day today and I have had no sleep.
Ds13 asked to have a friend over to sleep in the tent and I agreed as long as he made no noise.
At 10.30 he tells me his other friend is on the way also 13 years old. He says he is going to meet him at the shop and I said not a chance as it is too late for him to be on the streets. He says his friends grandma is now walking him instead and the next thing I know there is a knock at the door and his friend is here his grandma has dropped him off at the end of the street. I hadnt a clue what to do as it was late and I cant communicate very well with his family as none of them speak English only him.
So now I have 3 teenage boys sleeping in the yard.
4am I hear the door and they come in and ds starts making hot chocolate. He says they are getting warm drinks as they are cold and so I told him to come in and go upstairs if that's the case. He says they arent tired so are going to have a hot chocolate on the trampoline. I tell him to go back in the tent and go to sleep as they are making noise and I have to be up for work. The key is only to be used if they need the toilet not for making hot chocolate at 4am. An hour later I hear him come in again. They are cold so are going upstairs. He comes down 10 minutes later to make hot chocolate. Again waking me up. I tell him it's not fair and to go upstairs and go to sleep. He says he cant sleep because this is what time he usually gets up...... this is after him telling me that he is unable to get up before 7am no matter what time he goes to bed and this is why he is nearly late every morning to school. He acts like he is the only child that isnt able to wake before 7am ! ... I stood there just gobsmacked and told him this and he said he meant it's the time he usually gets up on a weekend.
He goes upstairs and I can hear them all now even the slightest talking sounds loud and he has put the ps4 on and I can hear banging and laughing no matter how many times I am telling him and shouting. This is one of many things that he is doing at the moment he just walks around saying he doesnt know what it is he has done wrong and so il tell him what hes done wrong and I get the same reply repetitively. I have no voice I have no help I have no one I can ask to help me. I am so so tired and just know il be falling asleep during the training today. I am exhausted lately and just feel so tired all the time constantly napping and no energy so my sleep on a night is detrimental especially now I'm going back to work. I'm so lost. The worst thing is I just domt want to be around him at times. I feel awful for saying it but we were supposed to be going camping together the next time the younger two go away with their dad and I just really dont want to. I hate how I feel. I just feel so lonely and not heard..