Not liking my teenage daughter

[Emmahinks]

Does anyone else not like their own daughter? Or is it just me!
She is totally vile to me and I find myself being unkind to her when she is so horrible to me.
Unfortunately My three year old sees this and it affects her sometimes.
I cry often about this and I am very low.
The other day my oldest daughter was throwing teddies at me and laughing and encouraging my baby to copying her. I was telling and then shouting at my oldest to stop because her sister was copying and thinking it was fun to throw things at mummy! I told my oldest that she is teaching her sister bad behaviour but she didn’t care. I had to hold on to my baby and walked away into the kitchen, where my oldest followed and was calling me a bad mum an evil mum for keeping hold of my baby. My oldest does stuff like this often and I hate her for it unfortunately 😢 I have to protect my baby from her big sister as she can be a bit much for her little sister. I really don’t like my teenage so I am starting a parenting course in January and I really hope this will help me 😭

Oh goodness you poor thing, I’m also going through hell with my teenager, she’s just moved out to her dads because, I parent her and she doesn’t like it. She had me referred to social services when I grounded her for various things (sneaking boys to my house, telling lies and another time being late again). Teenagers are so difficult and I hope you get the help you need. You’re not an evil mum at all, her behaviour sounds like she’s trying to get your attention and perhaps she’s jealous of her sister. I would personally not acknowledge her when she’s behaving that way and leave the room, avoid confrontation and let her come to you when she’s had time to think about her actions. She will in time see that her behaviour has cause the problem, and hopefully with a bit of maturity as she grows up will start seeing things on your terms. Good luck, it’s difficult I know, teenagers are like aliens...