Cocaine

[Duckie2014]

Been on here a few times and always said that’s me done. Back we go again! This time I said to my husband I swear on the kids that I won’t buy another but. I know that may sound naive but it is something I wanted to say but wasn’t quite ready.

now I have I can’t go back on this so I feel this is a shift. Guilt and shame tearing me up and no pleasure from it. I’ve done some smart - tmw is the first day of the rest of our lives and I feel we can both do it. My husband hates it even more than me now.

thanks for reading xx

Were you posting before Xmas?
If so you were doing so well .I'd suggest delete numbers of dealers and distance yourself from friends who use.
I'm an ex Amphetamine user of 20+ years so I do know it's not easy.

Thx for posting. Now I have said those words I could not live with myself as they mean a lot to me.

I will do smart meetings snd going to book away next weekend.

dont see much of friends so issue there. My husband has one contact so plan is for him to say he is not answering or away.
this time feels different as I knew when I said that I feel completely done.

For the love of god, just go and get yourself actual medical help. You’ll swear on anything and then do it, that’s what addiction does to you.

You need help and also you won’t be able to stop if you’re in the same house as a user. Your husband needs to stop too.

This is the type of post that goes against the whole idea of compassion and any kind of understanding.

I’m not looking for anyone to tell me practically what to do, just some words of encouragement. This is not a site I will be posting on again. I have already said it will be in conjunction with smart which I have attended. I suggest if that is your attitude just don’t bother commenting on people trying to change.

search up the chilly club on facebook and join.

My words of encouragement are for you to seek adequate, professional help.

What you’re looking for are pats on the head, but unfortunately that’s just enablement. My partner was very, very addicted too and anything other than tough love was just enablement because “this time would be different”.

Once an addiction gets to the point you can’t stop yourself, it’s time for medical hep. You’re at that stage.