Hi everyone, I need help and I’m scared.
10 years ago I had an operation and was prescribed strong opioid painkillers. I got hooked on them for a few years, I told my doctor I was addicted and he put a tapering off in place and eventually my prescription was stopped. I felt thoroughly miserable but battled on over the years until a couple of years ago I bought codeine over the counter. I was on at one point two boxes (64 tablets a day) the chemist shopping was and is exhausting and extremely humiliating. I’m sure they can see I’m nervous when asking for them. Chemists where I live are now no go shops, I get refused. But I work in a different area now and feel I am now exhausting these chemist shops too. I’m down to 6 tablets a day but darent tell anyone. I only have 10 tablets left and am dreading having to buy more at some point this week. I can’t tell my family (my husband said he will divorce me if I ever put our family through my addiction issues again) so I am alone in this. I cannot tell my doctor due to my addiction issues before. I think what I’m asking is, am I on a low dose that stopping will be fairly straightforward? I’ve been through cold turkey on high doses before and truly thought I was going to die but back then, I had my husband on board supporting me so he moved heaven and earth to find me some pills. I have read people that are on high doses the withdrawal will last a few weeks which is just not possible for me. I’m so ready for this craziness to end but cannot get the thought of only having 10 pills left out of my head. Please someone help!