The shame...

[Teasie123]

I have now started to realise why I haven't asked for help. It's the shame. The shame of admitting to what I am. The shame of admitting what I've done, the shame of admitting what I could have been...

Whatever you have done, there will be people out there who have done far worse, AND come back from it to lead happy, addiction free lives.

You have to forgive and accept yourself unconditionally in the end - there is absolutely no law of the universe that says you cannot do so. The past is the past - you can't change it, but you can leave it behind, and have a better future.

I have done this so I know it's possible.

Thank you so very much. Ur words and the strength that comes through, means a lot.🤗🤗

There is more shame in continuing. Believe me. All you have is now and you might look back on the past 20 years and think you have fucked up in every way possible but you have the next 20 years as a blank slate to start over and that is a gift. You know what you DON’T want. You know what has NOT worked. That’s power. Even though you might feel like right now you don’t have any. You do. You can reach out and get help. In fact you already have… here and that is a huge first step.

"Shame dies when it's exposed to the light"

I highly highly recommended Bryony Gordon's book Glorious Rock Bottom. She has some brilliant insights on this. Good luck!

Once I stopped drinking, the feelings of shame stopped. It was the alcohol that was fuelling the feelings. You can do this

That’s bang on actually.

Exactly! I haven't felt half as shifty, lmao, as I normally do!