(change name, all the normal parking /willie threads) so i've got what feels like an odd controllable addiction but not sure. Just writing this make me realise it's not....
i'm in long term 20+yr marriage with 2 girls and 1 boy
so, been a smoker from teenage years, stopped when pregnant and then secret smoker (never when with kids or could be near them
afterwards)
but also liked a drink, when teenagers/younger two things went hand in hand. have an drink then fag.
but now i'm secret smoker, i can't have a fag when i drink, but drink to crave a fag!!!
WTF!
i enjoy the escape the fag gives me but hate the crave having a drink gives me
so i know i have to give up fags. but it's my secret escape but i also hate, when i have a drink how much it makes me want a fag!
i secrete smoke like 1-2 a week, it's my naughty pleasure and i don't want more when sobar but drunk and it's a free for all ....
so what do i give up? fags or booze!!!
i generally really do enjoy a cheeky fag, coffee n book
but i also really enjoy a drink, natter with friends and night out
WHAT DO I GIVE UP?