I feel lost.
I have come to the conclusion that my husband is an alcoholic. He drinks about 40 units per week. He blames me for his drinking. He gets paranoid when drinking. He lies about his drinking and claims he only drinks a few cans weekly - the recycle bin would tell me otherwise. He suffers from daily mood swings and insomnia. He is overweight, has a bad diet, and high blood pressure. According to him he does not have a problem.
He is also emotionally abusive when drinking and not drinking.
Right now, I cannot leave because I am completing a part-time online-course and looking after our young child. I also have long-term disabilities that affect my ability to work full-time out of the house. I am trying to find a full-time work-from-home job when my course finishes in 2024. The industry that I am training in is mostly work-from-home.
In the meantime I do not know what to do; I feel sad everyday; I sleep in the spare room, and dread when I know he is coming home. The worst part is that I have no idea how this is affecting our child. Our child is very happy and doing well at school, but she is aware how much my husband likes beer.
Any advice would be greatly received. Thank you.