Help

[Itsmeagain123]

I went too far. Was meant to have a couple of drinks after work which ended up with cocaine and an after party. It's been months since I touched it. I have to get up with the kids tomorrow. I hate myself right now. Please talk me down

[tomatopsste]

Go to bed, sleep, get through tomorrow and learn from this!

Nothing can be done tonight.

Bed!!

[Itsmeagain123]

Anyone?

[tomatopsste]

Tomorrow (or Saturday) deal with what's happened and find out why and how to avoid it happening again.

[Itsmeagain123]

@tomatopsste im on my way home to bed now. I know I’m going to be lying in bed hating myself. I’ll get on tomorrow because I have to, I just wish I was wise enough to say no

[Itsmeagain123]

I know I need to stop drinking where I do and with the group I do but It’s just so easy to fall
in to these patterns

[bloomflower]

Be kind to yourself. You can get back on the wagon.

[Itsmeagain123]

I just wish I was strong enough to say no. My partner is going to be (rightfully) livid with me.

[tomatopsste]

@Itsmeagain123

@tomatopsste im on my way home to bed now. I know I’m going to be lying in bed hating myself. I’ll get on tomorrow because I have to, I just wish I was wise enough to say no

Well over the next day or so you need to decide how you're going to avoid triggers. That's the problem, you can't say no, so you need to avoid the situation.

It's tough, but not as tough as how you're feeling right now.

Drink a couple of pints of water, then get your head down.

When I'm stressed about a situation, I allow myself 15 mins of thinking about it, hating myself etc, then I force myself to move on.

Do that tonight, then deal with it tomorrow.

[tomatopsste]

@Itsmeagain123

I know I need to stop drinking where I do and with the group I do but It’s just so easy to fall
in to these patterns

I know it is, but you've got this, you're already feeling remorse! You don't like it, so you'll find a way forward.

[tomatopsste]

@Itsmeagain123

I just wish I was strong enough to say no. My partner is going to be (rightfully) livid with me.

Apologise, listen to what he says and discuss (but not tonight).

Ask for his help.

[Itsmeagain123]

@tomatopsste thank you. My work culture revels in it but thankfully I start a new job Monday which I’m hoping will let me get some distance. I’m just really fed up
with myself right now

[tomatopsste]

@Itsmeagain123

@tomatopsste thank you. My work culture revels in it but thankfully I start a new job Monday which I’m hoping will let me get some distance. I’m just really fed up
with myself right now

Well that's a massive positive you've got a new job!

Of course you're fed up with yourself and that's a good thing! Much worse if you couldn't give a shit!

New job, change, new you.

Xx

[Itsmeagain123]

I’ve just crawled in to bed were my partner has told me I’m a disgrace. So at least I’m not alone in my loathing.

[Itsmeagain123]

He’s told me right now he never wants to be near me again and the same for the kids. I know I deserve it but obviously my anxiety is through the roof

[Itsmeagain123]

My ds has just woke up so I’ve been relegated to his bed while he gets in the big one. I’m such a screw up

[bloomflower]

Have a watch of gabor mate videos about addiction on youtube. So helpful.

[tomatopsste]

@Itsmeagain123

He’s told me right now he never wants to be near me again and the same for the kids. I know I deserve it but obviously my anxiety is through the roof

He's talking in anger and he's justified.

He's sleep deprived waiting for you to come home.

But, you talk later and tell home how you're going to avoid this happening again.

[Itsmeagain123]

Honestly the man is a saint for putting up with me sometimes. Just wish I could actually go asleep now 😭

[MrsTerryPratchett]

You don't have to be sting or wise. And your DH isn't a saint. All this hyperbole!

Start your new job and get some proper help.

[MrsTerryPratchett]

Strong FFS

[AWOIF]

How are you today OP?