Hi there
I've been with my partner for almost 8 years. I'm almost 31, and my partner is 34. We've just had our first Baby who is 3 months. Alcohol has always been around but I feel it became a habit and a problem for about 6 years.
He drinks everyday, and a lot. Like 10 beers is pretty standard. He ran out of beers the other day after having a couple so he drank a bottle of red wine I was saving to drink until i finished breastfeeding. He never drinks wine.
He's not abusive or angry or anything like that. I just hate talking wit him when he's drunk, and even looking at Him sometimes, he's vague and slurry and never remembers anything we talk about. I absolutely dread events that we have together. I find him embarrassing, although most people seem to think it's fun.
I also worry because he's had so many accidents whilst drunk- like split his head open a few times.
I've learnt to worry less, and to just worry about me but I get so angry about it.
This all sounds awful but I love him so much. He's so funny and kind.
I don't know what I'm expecting from this, I think I just wanted to let it out.