Anyone else out there who is feeling trepidation about Christmas due to a relative's addiction? We're still not sure whether our family member will make it home for Christmas due to their addiction and mental state. If they don't then there will be a big gap in the family, and it will be heartbreaking to think of them spending it alone in god knows what state. If they do make it then it'll be worrying about how their behaviour will be and trying not to say the wrong thing. I feel like I'm grieving for past Christmasses when things were normal and I felt lucky to have such a lovely family unit. It's not an option for me not to go because I'm the child that didn't fuck up and I feel like I need to put a brave face on it for my parents. I'm looking forward to 3 days time when the pressure will be off.