So I met someone who became my abuser and used coke to live with it. I’m now at the end of what’s nearly left me homeless. Tonight I done it and just made me feel shit I don’t drink because it makes me ill. I’ve got lucky and cleared my debts paid all my bills and can move on without losing it all. I never ever let anything beat me but this with bpd has been bad. Tonight I think it’s finally over the abuser has been gone two months this is the last thing I had to do. I feel it’s done