I don't usually fall out with people but a couple of years ago I allowed one of the people (an ex-sponsor) to control me and cross my boundaries in many ways, I wasn't brave enough to tell her and then one day just snapped and told her I wanted to go NC.
For example, she would demand to speak to me on the phone everyday, slag members off behind their backs, tell my friends who weren't in the program about my addiction, bring up the past things I had said in meetings, drain my energy and just generally make me feel uncomfortable.
I have apologised by text and we have sent each other our good wishes etc because at one point she helped me a lot to get out of a bad life situation and we friends.
I was attending a meeting in another city which was great but I cannot make any other meetings now but the one she is at.
I am at a new rock bottom with my addiction and need a meeting more than I need to save face but I don't want to jeopardise her recovery by going to meeting and being ultra boundaried with her.
Do you think I should just go and face up to it? Im not sure it would even help with all this baggage there. Maybe she's even talked about me to the people who attend this meeting? Im so mixed up. The location and time is the only meeting i can attend.
Im thinking that if I go and just leave straight afterwards, it might work.
Thanks for reading