How do I get sober

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I need help, have just woken up after a huge night. I can't remember getting home. I was found on the door step, had vomited all over myself. I vaguely recall being dragged down the hall by my arms. My husband had to put me in the recovery position. He had to tell my SS I slipped and banged my head. I'm so ashamed I can't get out of bed. I have been gradually slipping down a distructive spiral and feel this is the last straw. I need help, how do I do this? Help

didn't want to read and run. I don't have much expertise. But I can say just from reading your post that you are clearly a person of value and intelligence who will find your way. Thinking of you with love and support. Take care and wishing you strength.

I'm almost asleep but didn't want to not answer. I'm happily sober with support from the dry thread here and club soda alcohol free on fb. I'll post more tomorrow but if you need somewhere to turn tonight I recommend club soda because there will be people posting.

I've managed to get out of bed drink some water, had a shower and a dip in the pool. (We live overseas) but still feel dirty and worthless. Apologies given to SS and DH. I can't stand the way DH is looking at me, I know he is disgusted - as he should be. DH said I could have died, I probably think that would have been better.

Don't think that. Every life has enormous value including yours my love. Sometimes we have to hit rock bottom to see our way up. If it's any help I'm sitting on the other side of the world (I presume!) with my back to the front door and all keys, digital devices, matches and knives in my handbag next to me as my troubled son has had an elephant sized and fairly scary meltdown. No violence apart from throwing things, shoving me and using the bread knife to cut up his earphones (??) but am keeping things out of his way. Life is shit at times isn't it. But we're here for each other. Thinking of you with support and understanding.

Thank you for your kind words. I've gone back to bed, I wish I had some painkillers or Valium in the house. I need to feel nothing. I hope you are ok - has your son calmed down ?

I understand about needing to feel nothing! Son is watching Friends and calming himself. Ive got a bloody draugh from front door on my back! Get some sleep and go and see doctor tomorrow maybe for some tranquillisers to get you through the next few days? I'm here for a handhold whenever needed. Sleep well. You're a good person never doubt that.

Can't sleep - have terrible anxiety not to mention a banging head ache. Might try to eat something.

The biggest step is recognising and admitting you have a problem. Your DH is probably feeling helpless. I am not an alcoholic but my brother is so can only speak as a family member. We are still waiting for him to admit his problem. It sounds odd but your DH would probably be relieved to hear you say your unhappy with the situation as that is the beginning of your recovery.

I guess that today will not be good for you. Alcohol will magnify the feelings of guilt about what you have done. You need to just get through it as best you can - drink plenty of water and if you can just get some sleep.

When you are sober tomorrow is the time to make a plan of how to get out of this. It won't be easy, there are some good threads on here that can help (DRY, Brave Babes) plus lots of sober blogs online. Also, as January is coming up, there will hopefully be a Dry January thread too.

DH and SS are just getting on with the day and I am feeling just awful. If I went to sleep and didn't wake up I think that would be best for all involved. I just want to sleep, but can't.

First steps: make an appointment with your doctor and tell them about your alcoholism and be HONEST.

Find your local AA and go along no matter how daunting it might be. Recognise that this is going to be a slow and arduous process because addiction literally changes the way your brain works. I know this sounds depressing but it doesn't help to sugar coat things. Consider this incident as your rock bottom and start working upwards. You can absolutely do this, but it takes a lot of hard work.

www.alcoholics-anonymous.org.uk/aa-meetings/find-a-meeting

Alcoholics Anonymous can be excellent. If you go to a meeting and don't like it, try another one, they all have differences.

I also recommend you start taking Vitamin B complex in as large doses as are medically safe, because alcohol washed vitamin B out of your system and without it you will feel anxious and depressed. It's a vicous circle, you feel depressed because of the alcohol and the only thing that gets you out of that depression is more alcohol. Been there bought the T-shirt.

I'm managing to function. Going to go for a walk to get some food get the blood moving around me. The outside world is frightening!

This is the first day of your new sober life, find out how you can join AA as suggested in a previous post. No point in being ashamed about what happened, think about what steps you should take next. Your DH is probably worried rather than anything else.

OP, you made the first step. You realised AND publicly admitted you have a problem. Speak to DH, see how is he willing to support you then look online to see what help you can get in your area. Do it TODAY.

You haven't given us more info: do you work, do you have other family around other than DH/DD?

DH wants to go to the pub, I feel like he is trying to punish me for what I've done. I've just been able to force some food and fluid down. Now time to get the make up on and put best foot forward ! Onwards and upwards

What is DH mad........you should not be drinking today...rest up....drink lots of water.....eat little and often if you can let DH go by himself

Read this book. I was drinking heavily but have stopped easily and don't miss it at all- can't recommend it enough!
www.amazon.co.uk/Kick-Drink-Easily-Jason-Vale/dp/1845903900?tag=mumsnetforum-21

The anxiety is killing me, desperate to get some sleep. But I just can't. DH wanted to go for a couple of drinks, I didn't drink. Had to walk out and leave for a few minutes- thought I was going to have a full blown panic attack. Don't know how to shake this dreadful feeling

The dreadful feeling is the 'beer fear' its a real thing! It will go once you have slept again (by tomorrow) I second the book that London suggested. I've tried quitting so many times but this book changed my relationship with alcohol. Now I don't drink and I feel great about that. Please order a copy or download it.

I'm starting to feel slightly human. DH really giving me the cold shoulder, he wanted to go out for dinner. I sent him with SS, I couldn't face being in public. Thanks for all the advice, I'm going to buy the book and take it one day at a time. I've got period cramp on top of everything else. So feeling pretty sorry for myself. Going to try to find some sleeping tablets and pack myself off to bed x

I've posted on your other thread, OP.

I hope you are ok today. If you have managed to access any online support please keep reading and posting. You'll get through this. I know I keep banging on about Jason Vale but I cannot recommend that book enough.
You may also find AA a good support if you can get to meetings. They are VERY different approaches but whatever works for you.