Anyone else feel uneasy about beauty changes and not being the real you?

[Leopardspota]

Does anyone else feel they want to make changes but feel uncomfortable as it feels like cheating? For instance, I want to dye my
hair but don’t as I feel like it won’t be ‘the real me’. I have worn make up in the past, regularly in fact, but I always felt uncomfortable if it was too bold. I know it doesn't make sense, but looking back I’ve never made the most of myself. I never felt pretty, but I look back and think they actually I’ve always been pretty I just didn’t enhance what I had, so compared to others I was plain. Not that I’m judging anyone else, I always admire others enhancements. I was never unhappy being plain/ blending in,
I just got a bit of a complex in my 20s when I had a boyfriend who wanted me to look a certain way. I also get worried about committing to ongoing costs for tho by a like hair dye or Ozempic, which is silly really as I can afford it.

I'm contemplating some major cheats. I shied away from them for the reasons you describe and then felt doomed to be dowdy, which demotivated me from trying at all. I have finally resolved to make the best of my ageing appearance using means that are safe and and have decades of being tested.

Go for it!!!

I also feel doomed to be dowdy. I realise others are just naturally sparkling, they don’t pretend it’s natural. Every now and then I consider a tummy tuck and then I worry I’ll die of sepsis and it will be my own, vain, fault, so resolve to be forever pot-bellied. Then I wonder why I won’t just start with hair dye. I once messaged a hair dresser about going blonder and then I ghosted her.

Sometimes people comment that I smell nice, and even then I feel phony and say ‘gosh yes it’s nice isn’t it. My husband got it in duty free!’ often I wonder what’s wrong with me as I’m well aware that no one has fucking Chanel seeping out of their pores.