I'm 47 and look like utter shite which is compounded by the fact that I am knackered and, I think, having some kind of autoimmune flare up and have had a virus pretty much since Christmas. I feel constantly stiff and sore which makes everything seem hard work.
My eyes are very dry despite using eyedrops in the morning. My skin is also dry but I have breakouts on my chin. This is because I could actually grow a beard if I left it to it's own devices so I took the plunge and started electrolysis after Christmas. However, even the technician took pity on me and said that because of the volume it would take a long time so she's interspersing with laser in the hope that it will get rid of the darker ones and she can then get the white ones. In the meantime, I have very deep follicles which makes me prone to ingrowing hairs. It's a real joy.
I am also hairy all over my body - I went for a leg wax once and the woman said "wow" I've never seen hair like this before, it's like a mans. This was a different place to the one I went to have my nails done where the technician exclaimed that I have nails like plates. I play sport so my nails need to be short but I don't do anything with them other than file them because my hands are huge and it looks ridiculous. I also don't wear any jewelry at all. I used to wear my wedding and engagement rings but broke my ring finger and now can't fit them on any other fingers. I often can't find rings or bracelets to fit as my fingers/hand are too big to get them on.
I am a healthy weight and BMI but I generally look bigger than all my peers who are more overweight than me. I have a big frame with broad shoulders and narrow hips. However, now I'm menopausal the weight sits on the top of my waist so I essentially look like a brick. I go to the gym at least three times a week and play sport twice a week but I just look big and whereas I used to wear tighter fitting clothes I can't really anymore because, despite the exercise, I still have bulges and look a bit like a sausage.
My diet isn't always great. I try to avoid processed foods but I often have to eat on the run. I also have very little real appetite so will eat shite when I'm hungry because I don't fancy anything and I'm too knackered to be bothered to prepare anything. I take Vit D & B, magnesium, collagen and am on HRT. I drink plenty of water.
The hair on my head is like a wild bush. Apparently I have two different types of hair. The hair underneath is very think and frizzy. The hair on top is finer. Basically it makes for a mess. I am very fair skinned but not in a nice way, more a pale yet ruddy type of complexion. I use Dr Jarts colour corrector to take the redness out but it doesn't make a great difference.
I don't tan in the sun but I am also allergic to the cold (specifically cold water) which causes me to swell and my skin go bright red. Thus I can no longer go cold water swimming or even swim in the sea on holiday if it's cold. My body is so pale it is grey.
Basically, I look awful and it feels like, unless I spend a lot of time and money on my appearance I am destined to continue to look awful.
Apologies for the pity party, I'm just so tired today. I want to feel and look better.