GOML: I don't think you need US to judge you
just look in the mirror
you could start singing barbershop songs?
CD Yes the demeneted animal. I mean in my head I think "Really, I'm not suicidal/homocidal, everything is jolly peachy" but it doesn't actually stop the GENUINE FEELINGS that I want to push my family off a cliff
then a few days later - PING! normal mummy again