Do I have body dysmorphia?

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I would like to include pictures of myself but that would take away from my anonymity

I am starting to feel I have Body Dysmorphia
I have had a terrible time in love and either end up ghosted or used for sex. I never feel good enough and I doubt it will change anytime soon.

for the past couple of years I have started to get fillers and treatments. Spend a fortune. I have now started on body treatments. (Emsculpt neo, fillers for chest, pressotherapy) you name it I have researched it for hours. I have nail extensions, hair extensions, filler in lips cheek and jaw. I have been getting botox since I was 24.

I see pictures of myself and I cannot believe that I look OK - I am gobsmacked that I even look half OK. I take pictures of myself (selfies) in the morning, at work and at night and I just pick apart how I look.

I have never had a boyfriend tell me I am pretty - I have always been told the opposite or cheated on. Called a slut or that I am ‘weak’. One boyfriend used to berate me for not having my toe nails polished all the time and also used to look at me and tell me how much weight I had gained. I look back at photos and cannot believe I did not look like a hippo and I actually looked OK.

is this normal behaviour?

No it is not normal behaviour, although we are living in an increasingly shallow society where vulnerable people ( mainly but not only women) are preyed upon by the purveyors of services and products to think that their appearance is not good enough ( and never could be, how else would these charlatans have a market?)
As for the men you have been mixing with, they sound awful.
Even if you were really plain, anyone nice would not be mentioning it, and would find things about you to love.
Boyfrinds who berate you for any aspect of your appearance are, quite simply, nasty pieces of work, and any such comment should be viewed as a massive red flag.
I think you should maybe see a therapist to work on your self esteem and avoid relationships or even dating until you are more able to spot a loser when you see one.
Nice men just don’t behave like this.

I have ended up dumping them all - only six months later to meet another and have to dump them - if they havent ghosted me first.

I earn over 200k per annum and I am really starting to wonder if my financial sucess has been directly proportional to how a majority of men treat me.

Why would you share your income with your dates ?