My nose is very "unique", partly due to genetics, partly due to a series of operations when I was a baby. I was teased about it in school and it's always bothered me. Of course, friends and family have said it's lovely and I don't need to change it, but the plastic surgeon confirmed how bizarre it was - said he'd never seen one like it before; in fact, it broke the computer imaging software he used to calculate angles etc. because it's so all over the place. He said 'it somehow manages to be both bulbous and pointed' and says I have a 'saddle nose deformity'. Think a sort of scooped, upturned elvish nose but also really wide and round - piggy yet pointy.
I'm so relieved to get booked in for rhinoplasty but now am feeling unsure. The idea of someone essentially taking a box cutter to my face is terrifying. Also, although he's a really well-respected surgeon with wonderful reviews, who has worked on extremely difficult cases before, the fact my nose is so unusual is making me wonder if surgery will actually be able to fix it. It's not like a big hooked nose where you just shave the bump off, it's a lot of work on the tip and nostrils.
I've also spent so long telling myself that my weird nose gives me character / plastic surgery is a huge selfish indulgence / a truly good feminist would never have rhinoplasty / I don't owe the world 'pretty' etc that I'm feeling exceptionally guilty that the first thing I do when I come into some money is get a nose job. (It's going to cost £7000. I keep thinking 'there are people starving on the streets and I'm spending this much money on my perfectly functional nose!')
Has anyone here had rhinoplasty? Was it worth it? Did you have misgivings like this beforehand? I think I just need a hand hold. I deep down desperately want to fix this but the actual process of doing so is quite terrifying.