Invisalign- tell me to woman up!

[SharyBobbins]

I had a consultation for Invisalign today and I'm in turmoil! I'm hoping some of you may have already had it or be in the middle of having it and are willing to help talk me off the ceiling!
I have an irrational fear of dentist so just sitting in the waiting room today had me in tears. I've been that distracted all day I've only just realised I've not had lunch (not like me at all!).
The thing is that I hate my smile. I try not to smile, not let people sit a certain side of me (my crooked top teeth are more noticeable on one side that the other). In every photo my lips are firmly sealed. I cry at the thought of living the rest of my adult life being so self-conscious. I want to be confident for me and for my little girl. That Jess Glynne song (Thursday?) makes me cry in the car. Despite all of that, having never even had a filling, I am terrified of interfering with my teeth when I don't "need" to. The dentist said I'd need them on the top and the bottom (which also made me upset as I thought the bottoms were alright). I'll need to wear them for 9-12 months in total. I think I can be disciplined enough to maximise their potential during and after with the retainer. But I'm getting put off as from what I have read they aren't really "invisible". The adhesive dots which they attach to your teeth seem to ruin that and given my front two teeth are the issue I imagine I'd need some on there. I keep swinging between thinking I just accept my imperfections and leave it to thinking that sorting my smile will genuinely improve my confidence and if I can then why shouldn't it. I'm also scared of being even more self conscious due to having plastic and random dots in my mouth 22 hours a day but on the other hand I'm so self conscious of my teeth anyway so I might as well be a tad more self conscious for the next year or so and possibly come out with some good results.
Can anyone offer any advice or experience?
Sorry for ramble. My DH isn't home yet and when I talked this through with my toddler she didn't care enough to offer any good advice

Sharybobbins. How are you going? Interview went well. Still waiting on a job. Public sector worker so guessing it won't be until after Christmas. Budgets! It's coming though so I'll be patient.

Back to the teeth. I was at the orthodontist yesterday. Good news for me. I have my appointment for getting them off. 9th March. I am delighted.

So I've just heard that song I referenced in my first post & thought I would update in case anyone comes across this thread in the future and is considering invisalign! My attachments are off and I'm back using a bump free brace on my (nearly) perfect teeth. Still have a little while to go due to some corrections but oh my goodness the difference is amazing!! Best thing I've ever done for myself. Hope on here is well and you finally heard back about that job @NowYouListenToMeFella

Only seeing this now. Finally got offered a job, paperwork underway. Lord knows how long that will take.

Delighted to hear the braces are going well. I'm still on track to have mine off Monday morning. I cannot wait.

So delighted I did it and it wasn't a bad experience at all.