I’m 22 years old and I have 2 year old daughter. I’ve smoked since I was 15/16 years old so I’d say nearly 7 years smoking and since I first picked that cigarette up I’ve been on around 15-20 a day im so ashamed to say. I know this habit is so selfish and that I need to quit. This habit also costs me roughly a £360 a month I feel sick when I see that number in black and white. I don’t buy myself any new clothes or make up or anything that will make feel good because I prioritise cigarettes. I also think because I very rarely go out or drink alcohol only ever at occasions I justify this. But the truth is I love smoking it’s the first thing I do when I wake up and the last thing I do at night and what gets me through the day mostly. My dp doesn’t smoke and never has done so I am lucky that I don’t have the temptation from him in the house however I do feel immensely guilty of how my habit is impacting us all as a family financially. And as much as I do love this ‘escape’ I also want to be able to see my daughter grow up , get married have children I lost my dear nan when I was 7 and she was a heavy smoker she was like a second mum to me and I know how much she has missed out it was all very sudden and quick from cancer. I guess I’m just looking for some words of encouragement please be kind this is very hard for me to actually face up to and really to be honest about even to my DP. I have one final cigarette to have tonight and then I am done. I really do want to make a change for my family and myself. I don’t want this to be my life anymore.