Yesterday I got to 24 hours around 4pm. That was a big moment for me, psychologically. I knew then it was possible to live every hour of the day without vaping.
DP noticed, shortly after I hit the 24 hour mark. He's been asking me to cut down for a long time, the level I've been vaping at worries him. I had (sometimes for real, sometimes pretended) stopped vaping between 11-12 each week day to appease him. So when I told him I'd just hit 24 hours his jaw dropped to the floor. Even more so when I said it wasn't a 24 hour stint and I've actually quit for good. He wishes I'd told him at the time and would have done it with me (I'm glad I didn't and don't have him setting the example, he's always been able to take it or leave it, hes nowhere near the addict I am)
I've also told some friends now. They asked if I wanted to go to a gig this weekend, I've said no, I'm not ready to add alcohol into this vape free life. I'll be straight back to where I started. I'll have to be avoiding social drinking events until I'm ready.
I would like to say the fist 24 hours were the worst, but what would I know. I'm only on 40 hours now..
Yesterday evening I took DDog for a long walk in the woods. I ended up picking up a vape shaped stick and carrying that round in my hand. It made me feel better, made me feel a bit more like me.
I keep subconsciously reaching for my vape before my brain clicks in and tells me I don't do that anymore. I do wonder how long that's going to last. Perhaps a very long time, considering how long I've been vaping for.
Yesterday I really snapped at DP and we argued. I dont know if this was nicotine withdrawal related. He let the dog off the lead right near a swamp. Would I have snapped anyway? Probably, but in a different, less nasty way.
On the plus side, I had a bathroom to clean following that episode, and it's the first thing I've done so far without vaping on my mind. Perhaps because cleaning the bathroom is one of the very few things I used to do without the vape attached.
Thanks to PP for suggesting the YouTube channel - I've been using that a lot when I'm struggling. It's really helping.
This morning I was craving so bad at wake up time, first thing in the morning is definately a different level crave. I'm not going to fail at this, but if I did it would be at 0630am, I'm sure.
So here we go again, I'm ready to hit the 48 hour mark later today