Day two (ish) Struggling

[Dugthedog]

Sooooo…my main reason for stopping smoking is money!!! It’s too expensive!
I went to the chemist on Wednesday and started their 12 week program. They gave me step 1 patches and Nicorette spray. I’ve also intermittently been using an elf at I bought last week until it runs out.
I had my last fag around 10:20 Wednesday, used my elf bar until bed time when I put a patch on. Yesterday went well with the patch and spray and using the elf bar at some points.
woke up this morning and really really struggled with the cravings. I just wanted my morning fag!
it passed with the help of the spray.
ive had cravings literally even 10-20 mins! I don’t want to be too reliant on the spray too much but I feel I have to and I fear I end up using it more than I should especially when I drop down on patches.
Ive had majorly anxiety with stopping and was shaking with anxiety about 10 mins ago.
the dreams from the patches are increasing my anxiety!
what doesn’t help is today is payday and I need to go shopping. I’m scared of how I’ll be when I get to the shop. If I’ll cave because I’m there and because I have money.
ahhhhhh. I feel like im never gonna kick the habit.

How are you getting on dugthedug? It’s hard breaking that cycle for sure. I’ve officially given up but evenings out are difficult!

@Youhaveyourhandsfull I’ve not smoked yet!!! Wooohooo. Buuuut I feel like I’m using my mouth spray more and more. Sometimes I really struggle. Dreading moving down a stage on my patches though.

That’s great news @Dugthedog well
done. I admit I’m still having the ‘occasional’ one over the past couple of years when I go out. But I’ve just worked it out and I think I’ve had 5-6 fags a year for the past two years. Seem to be about that level and haven’t increased. Should really knock it on the head but at that level I don’t have a huge incentive to totally quit :-\

@Youhaveyourhandsfull thats still amazing! Im dying to go for a drink or even have a bottle of wine In the house but I know it’s going to end in me just being pissed and wanting a fag.
the reason I started smoking again after having my youngest was because I was smoking when I was drinking. Granted I’ve gave up alcohol almost completely now (will go out/drink 2-3times a year)

@Dugthedog thats always the risk with having one when out that you’re back on them all the time pretty quickly. Agree it’s a good idea for you not to drink for sure for the time being. I didn’t smoke at all for over a year but have kept it to smoking two or three times a year since. I’ve got an open packet at home I haven’t touched since I last had one which was at Xmas. BUT I think I’m quite unusual with that! Keep going and good luck x