AWiseWomanOnceSaidFuckThisShit ·
17/09/2021 19:36
Aged 37. Coughed up a speck of blood a couple of years ago after a nervous dry cough. Tests were fine Thank God but every time I've lit one up since I feel an enormous amount of guilt and worry. Bought a pack of 20 a few days ago... I have one final one left. I'll smoke it later and after that I'm fucking done. It's the biggest regret of my life. But I feel anxious, irritated, agitated. I bloody love a fag. But I know I'm at the age where I need to start taking it seriously. I'm going to face things in the future that will seriously stress me out and I know it's going to be so, so fucking hard!! But I want a healthy future. I don't want to have nightmares about lung cancer anymore. I really really want to not crave a fag again. Anyway... fingers crossed I can beat this vile habit. It's going to be so hard.