The satisfaction I get when I light one up is great obviously otherwise I wouldn't smoke, but it's nothing compared to the guilt I feel when I've put it out. What am I doing to my health etc. I have smoked a bit more due to lockdown and being out of my normal routine. This week I've smoked two a day, but 6 last night because I was drinking (this is when I mainly struggle because I really enjoy a fag with a drink). I am on the wine again tonight and know I'll probably crack and have a couple. Then I'll beat myself up about it all day tomorrow. I never used to really think about it but now I'm getting older (mid 30s) I'm thinking about my future health more and worrying about taking better care of myself...