Please help me stop

[LittlestB]

I just can't stop smoking. I've tried everything going but have absolutely zero willpower. I have a vape thingy, but when I run out of cigarettes and decide 'that's it, am not buying any more' - it's like an invisible voice/force in me that tells me just to get one more pack. I've tried gum, patches, Allen Carr, cold turkey - everything.

Shamefully I lost my beloved grandmother to lung cancer two years ago and still haven't quit. I can't afford to smoke, we are saving every penny for our wedding. I've used my overdraft to pay for cigarettes and I've only just paid it off.

Am so so ashamed of myself and don't know what's wrong with me. I suffer from high functioning but severe anxiety and depression and don't know if it's linked?

For background: am also trying to shift three stone, but with slimming world so I know eating won't be an issue as I can eat 'free foods'. And I want to TTC for my first after the wedding, and am already 29, so I know this needs to stop.

Any advice? Please be gentle, I know IABU.

That's brilliant - well done you :) I'm a bit in awe, knowing how hard cold turkey can be - keep it up!

Thanks furry! Im not going to lie, the first week was bloody difficult! I just got sick of feeling like I had a constant hangover. Also, I now feel slightly like someone's given me a fistful of anti anxiety meds which is an unexpected side effect!

MASSIVE well done!!

That's great it's helped your anxiety as well!

Thanks Pube! I feel like this is a quitting smoking result people should talk about more? Seems like quite the selling point...