Relapsed back to cigs from vaping

[AgentCooper]

I'm sitting here in tears. I've just gone out and bought fags and smoked 2 in a row. I had been a happy, healthy vaper for 6 months, 6 whole months! I'm on the last day of my holiday with DSis and it's been quite boozy. Now Isshould know better but booze really worsens my anxiety and I developed such a strong craving for a real fag the past few days that I couldn't eat or sleep.

And this morning i finally gave in. I'm so angry and disappointed. I have let everyone down.

I need any advice, please. I'm hoping that if I go to a higher nic level when iget home and mmaybe get a better kit (I was on 12mg and just had a basic clearomiser and battery) that I will be able to be a vaper again. Sorry to bring negativity on here but I am so, so low.

Hi Plenty, today has been a wee bit better, thanks. Still not feeling very well but I only had 2 stinkies. I went into town to get new juice (menthol ice, green ice and clear flue tobacco from Vaporized) and the guy in the shop was lovely and helpful.

I visited another vapeshop which has just opened but the two guys were absolutely baked - their pupils were huge and they called my mum (who was shopping with me) 'man.' She started kicking me and then made up something about needing to get to Boots and we legged it.

I think I've been reading too much online I didn't know all this stuff about MAOIs in tobacco and now it's got me worried, because if the lack of them is contributing to my anxiety and I'm not getting them from vaping, what can I do?

Whatever their effect, I didn't miss them when I switched to vaping before, but now it's like the idea of them is stuck in my head. It's like not knowing and thinking it was just nicotine I needed helped me before. I hate feeling this anxious. I have read so much positive stuff on here about switching from smoking to vaping with little emotional effect as the vape smoothly replaced the smoke, and that's what seemed to happen for me last time, but now I feel terrible.

Hi Agent, I'm not a regular here, but an avid vaper and just sending you some love. You can do this. You've done it before. Anxiety is the worst and no one gets it, but you sounds so determined. I agree it would be awesome to treat a new kit and a little juice shopping spree. I found having a lot of new juice flavours to try helped me put down the cigs. x

Thanks, ungrateful Have you had issues with anxiety yourself? And if so, has vaping helped? I just feel like my mind is going round in circles.

Massive well done for only 2 fags on Sunday!

I'm so sorry you are still feeling so anxious and very sorry if my post caused you additional stress. Thinking about it further, I doubt the MAOI's would be much of an issue in your case because if you take them in the form of an antidepressant they take a couple of weeks to build up in your system before they start working and you only slipped up a few days ago. As you noted in your OP, it's the booze in all probability that has set off your anxiety.

if the lack of them is contributing to my anxiety and I'm not getting them from vaping, what can I do?

Go to your GP. Smoking is a rotten (but very, very common) way to deal with MH difficulties. You have a right to proper treatment for your anxiety without having to turn to something as damaging as smoking. I don't know whether you have had much help in the past but it's clear you could do with some further help now. Also, why not start a thread on the mental health board? There are some very knowledgeable and supportive posters there.

I think the anxiety needs tackling as a separate problem from the smoking and IMO it should be the priority. You are far more likely to be successful once you are effectively tackling the anxiety.

Hope you feel better soon

Thanks Plenty - please don't worry, your post didn't stress me out, I'd already heard about MAOIs in tobacco and disappeared down an internet black hole reading about it all and got myself worked up. Thinking about it rationally, if I went 6 months without fags, then whatever anti depressant factors they have can't have been too drastic for me.

I already take meds for my anxiety and, happily, was on a lower dose than I had had in years when I was vaping as I was feeling so much better. That's also a good sign. I know I just have to get over this hill and I can get back to a better place. I have been managing to vape more than smoke today again. Thank you to all you lovely vapers who have been so kind and encouraging when I've been feeling so rough

reported!

We don't half get a lot of them of the vape threads?

Shows how popular vaping is & what a market there is for it!

Keep vaping, vipers!!

I think that one was worse than most - it didn't just advertise their own website but it bitched about a specific rival