Only joking omg what a time you have had, good for you for kicking it.
Whomever said they felt jealous when they saw others go out for a cigarette, I was the same! Felt I was denying myself something. I read and reread the Alan Carr book, dh nagged and nagged me, I stank, ALL my spare cash went on cigarettes, and I was SO embarrassed- most people at my work didn't know I smoked- I'd have three fags, then shower, then work, not smoking till I got home at 2pm when I'd chain smoke ten or so, with cups of coffee. I'm still loving the coffee.
The funny thing was when I bought my first vape kit, I was cross cos I'd shelled out £25 or something! Drop in the ocean. I still like the whiff of fresh cigarette smoke, but OMG hand on heart, I PITY people who smoke now, and you don't realise how bad you smell till someone comes in after a cigarette, it's horrible. I'm still washing things from my wardrobe as there are still things that smell a bit of smoke. I can honestly say, I PREFER vaping. I held an unlit cigarette the other day and had no desire to light it, even when I have a drink the thought of it makes me feel sick. I will never smoke again, and I'd say its you lovely people that have had such an effect on me- advice, sympathy, recommendations, daft questions. Sorry I'm writing novels this morning! Xxx