**************Reflection & Looptheloop*******************

[Squirrel3]

Where are you?

Reflection, we haven't heard from you in ages, missing you...

Loopy, I know you said you wouldn't post anymore but you must lurk surely (I know I wouldn't be able to resist ).

You must know that we miss you...

We are all playing nicely now! Promise!!!

Pleeeeeeeeeeeeease come back!!!!!!!!

Right! We've got LoopTheLoop back! Yippie!!!

Now what about Reflection? Are you posting under a different name now?

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmm! Might have to do some detective work!

lol what a lovely picture of you nnn I didnt know you were so famous

Hello Tarantula,

I'm busy detecting ............................................................................

AAAAAAARRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This isn't you is it reflection??????

That's not Reflection - that's me on a good day!! Where did you get the shot from.

Good to be back amongst fellow nutters! Although I'm a simple creature and some of your name changes will confuse me - so apologies in advance for any blunders!

Hello LTL great to see you back. Im FANC by the way the mumsnetter formally known as SadSam. NNN (NannyNooNoo) is the mumsnetter formally known as Squirrel3 and I think that is about it on name changes.

How you bee doing?

Reflection, we need you back! I just know that you will have some really good thoughts on a job description for step-mums!

Hi. I am touched. Work blocked site and due to fin probs no internet at home. I am soooooo chuft that it poppedup today when I felt the need just to see......wicked. Not jet read job description yet but will come back later for further investigation. Really missed you guys...

Hello!

How are you?

You have been missed.

If i'm honest. Not great. I relly miss myself....ususally I am a happy go lucky person but this year is really grinding me down. Starting to feel so low. Wondered what I did in a previous life. Glad to have a distraction though. .

I'm really sorry to hear that, I know how you feel, my year has been pretty grinding too, I got through it by talking on here. I recon people must have got a bit fed-up with me moaning on but everyone was great, really supportive.

Would it help to talk? We would all be here for you.

Well here goes....I feel that there is no area in my life that is alright.

Finance...DH made redundant last year. Borrowed money to survive. Now can not afford to pay it all back. DH now self employed. Money coming in but erratic and keep missing payments. Applied for home owners loan last month and problems because mortgage in arrears. Used EVERY penny that I earnt to pay it off at the expense of the other loans and reapplied. Praying that it comes through in time or we are screwed.

SD...BM makes arrangements for our weekend(child in impossible situation) and we have not seen SD for seven weeks. Could not pay maint again this month...BM needs it(as she just got back from holiday so maybe needs more money) BM has also been texting me to ask are you alright? but phoning other people to get the "gory details" as she puts it. I feel humiliated.

SS....is fifteen and we hardly ever see him now. We are probably boring. No money for hardly any thing. Gave PS2 to SD for christmas as could not afford gift. No internet or cable and usually very basic food.

DH.....well. Stress. Never good for a sex life(which I miss) He is also on anti depress. drugs.

ME......Have not have haircut for ages. No money for clothes feel like a tramp. Really struggle to find stuff in mornings.

Mother...ragging alcoholic...pissed herself the last time I wen to see her. 5pm.

Dad....Abusive to mother.(and to us when we were at home) DH and he nearly had punch up last month have not spoken to him since.

Finally I have no money for petrol to get home today.....will have to approach colleage to borrow enough to get home.

I am feeling really over whelmed.....haven't sharedthis with anyone else but now ive just posted it on the net....must be truley nutty

Crikey, I don't know what to say....

I wish I could help, I wish I had loads of money to give to you.

Why are BM's so nosey? But I guess the problem is that she is being so two-faced about it. I would be hurt too.

How far away does 15 yr old SS live? Does your DH have any free time (I know its difficult being self employed)? The reason I ask is, do dh and ss have a shared interest? Could they go fishing or something together (you may be able to borrow some rods and tackle) you could go along too, you may enjoy it!!!. 15 is such a difficult age and I'm sure once he grows out of the stroppy teenager stage you will see more of him.

As for your sex-life, maybe doing something simple like taking a bath together, or if he is in the bath on his own offer to wash his back etc (paying particular attention to the 'etc'!!!) Cook a simple meal, it doesn't have to cost much, just make sure you have low lights (I wish I could send a nice bottle of wine down the 'puter) tell him how much you love him, that you know things are hard but it hasn't changed the way you feel about him. (It must be hard for him to know he is not 'providing' for the family the way he wants too.)

As for the haircut and new clothes snap! also wish I could treat us to a shopping spree!

As for your Mum and Dad {hug} families can be so bloody difficult, does Mum accept that she has a problem? You can get support from your GP (I think/hope)

I hope you can get the money to get home...

I probably haven't helped you but I hope it helps to know that I care and you are not on your own, you can talk any time, I'm here for you... {{hugs}}

You know all these things I can cope with but when its all together sometimes a just can not stop crying......fingers crossed. ever the optermist!? spelling!! Thank you so very much for listening?? Reading...

I really don't like being like this but today is a difficult day and I expect that tomorrow will be different. How are you squirrel? Got some catching up to do.

Oh yeah. BM is exceptionally two faced. Really sly. lovely to me some times and others a cow. Then lovely and I think that all is ok and then slags me off. makes me feel like a fool. So trying not to communicate with her at the mo..

Reflection, trust me I know what you mean about everything all happening at once, its the pits!!!

Please try to take some 'time-out' for yourself, try and do something that you enjoy!

A walk in the New Forest doesn't cost much!

(and BTW I am still very of you living so close to it)

Keep talking, it does help to unload.

I'll be around tommorrow afternoon hopefully.