I'm really really at my wits end and don't know what to to do anymore. My step son was 18 months old when I came into his life and he is nearly 13 years old now. At age 6 we got the autism diagnosis. His mum cannot cope with him, she therefore never bothered, never took him to see santa, never did a birthday party for him, step son is with us most of the time. We've always dealt with his educational needs too. I've always been there for my step son but I now cannot cope, anxiety is so bad, I feel like leaving my husband who I love so I don't have to deal with step son. I feel I'm not aloud to not be able to cope. We have two other kids together too. Unless you've had an autistic step child you will not understand how hard life can be. Family and friends have always praised me on how good I am with him but my sanity has gone and I'm losing the plot. I went to see the doctor after plucking up the courage to be told I'm fine and go and get on with it!! This has been going on about a year now and things not getting any better 😢