Hi , iv literally joined this site as I'm at my wits end and don't know what to do 😥 I have had a history of abusive relationships and most recently the one with my sons dad which ended nearly 4 years ago. I vowed to never get in to a relationship ever again and was mostly happy on my own but struggled. Last year however I met the nicest kindest man that you literally couldn't imagine would exist ! But I got involved initially for the wrong reasons (money) as the months went on he eased the pressure off me not only financially but helping with my son , so I decided to continue on even though I had huge doubts about being attracted to him and weather our personalitys matched because he made my life in every way easier! I can not express how unique he is, absolutely adores me and loves my son like his own , my son is now very attached to him because he doesn't have a very good relationship with his biological dad. My issue is now that I feel totally torn, I don't find him physically attractive and feel no more but friendship feelings with him , when he's away I don't feel like talking to him much and rarely look forward to seeing him.. however when he's with us and we are doing family days out I really enjoy the time we spend together and it feels like a real family.... the issue for me is that in all my past relationships I think iv become addicted to the abuse and now I have a guy who is so perfect in all areas in how he treats us im just not happy! If I split with him my son would miss him desperately and I would no doubt miss him in a way... it's so hard to explain this situation and I'm just so confused .... I feel so guilty that I feel like that and I haven't told him how I feel I just don't know what to do! The last thing I want is to go back to a guy that is "my type" which clearly is abusive 😖 The two only issues I have with him are that he's not physically what I find attractive (too slim) and isn't as intelligent as I would like.... Can anyone relate to this or offer me some advice? X