This might not be a big deal, I don't drink much, in fact I think last time I got drunk I was still single. It's stupid that now nothing seems to work out and I decide to have a drink at 3 pm, I have a glass of wine every now and then with my meals and a bit more every other weekend, like I said, never get drunk so I don't mind drinking early but today, I know I'm doing it because I feel terrible and I can't sleep to make time go away faster. I've been dedicating my last year to DP and DSS and things were going so well, the evil ex would ruin things every once in a while but we managed, the kid was happier, his grades and performance at school were amazing, his health was outstanding and his hygiene better than ever, our life was better, I leave to fix my divorce and I come back to a complete utter mess, everything I did for nothing, how is it possible to work so hard for something, achieve it and as soon as you turn your back someone messes it up? Why can't she understand this is for the child and his future? How can she care so less and be so selfish. I have on strength to start from null. My DP sometimes is too scared of the ex to do anything and the ex just doesn't give a Damn, as long as the kid is quiet and she gets her alone time.
I probably sound like a pathetic nag, I know and I'm fine with it, I just wanted to know if anyone here feels/has felt the same way, if so, how did you deal with it?
Thank you.