I need help I'm confused.

[Theautisticpenguin]

Hi bear with me this is strange and scary, I'm a 24 year old man with aspergers syndrome and bpd, self harm, depression, aniexity, suicidal thought and have tried suicide 8 times and was in a and e twice last month for help with suicidal thoughts, I really craving hugs, cuddle and affection etc. I find myself looking for a mommy figure even though I have a mum and dad that treat me well and i love dearly, I really want cuddles and reassurance and told that I'm loved and cared for.
I don't know why I'm like this and I'm terrified that everyone would be mad at me here, and the feelings get worse when I'm depressed and the mental health people are rather lacking in there approach to help as when I speak to men I find it incredibly hard to even talk to them but I can talk to nice women which is confusing to me, why is this? Please don't be mad at me I'm really sorry and I feel like I'm hurting everyone and I dispise every breath I take, sorry in advance

My son when overloaded used to need 'big hugs' when he got the same size as me out and about it became a problem. We tried compression vests you can get sport ones that give you that feeling and sensory pressure you maybe seeking. He wears them for stressful situations haircuts, new places etc. Hope this helps take good care of yourself

That seems like a good idea, I used to have a girlfriend (we broke up but are still best friends) and when we meet she still cuddles me and gives me as many hugs as I need. But if I get a vest it might help for when she isnt around

Do you think that my need for a mother Figure might have to do with hugs and feels comforted?

You've asked about hugs before
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/special_needs_teens_and_young_adults/4216491-Hugs?msgid=106774919

I think it's a sensory need that you have, nothing to do with looking for a mother figure and/or comfort.

Maybe your right, I love hugs and cuddles it must be sensory thing. I have a weighted blanket and I'm waiting on a weighted vest so that might hopefully help.

Was just going to suggest a weighted blanket - glad you have one.
How about you get a nice size firm cuddly teddy bear to hug in bed? It is sooo comforting - I recommend

That's a really good idea I'm going to do that, I love cuddle things so much

It is really lovely emotionally as well as a sensory experience of hugging a soft furry toy. Helps you sleep too

I ordered a big cuddle panda cant wait for it to come

I hope you love it! It's a relationship which doesn't ever have problems - only lovely feelings