Wracked with worry and trying not to dwell on it, working at staying positive but really feeling crushed by isolation of it all and also pressure of trying stay calm/composed on outside. Don't know where else to go with this, but in past have met lovely people on here who have shared similar experiences - have been life savers really. (Thanks again lovely posters - little pressie for you all
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Our lovely DS, such a good-hearted sweetie and with meds for approx. 2 years managing his ADHD really well. Prior to meds nothing was working and both us and school thought he was heading for some sort mental health crisis/breakdown. He still struggles with lots of the everyday life stuff and also has low-level OCD, a Tic Disorder and ODD (also a mini-miracle that the meds help with these too).
To cut a long story short, the other day at breakfast just me and him were in the house (before his meds as I'm aware in rare instances they can affect perceptions etc), and he came into the front room looking terrified, convinced that someone had just whispered his name behind him. Just writing it makes me cry. Of course, I took it lightly, we talked it through, we convinced ourselves that it was probably just the old fridge making the hissing noises that it sometimes does and he'd misheard, we laughed it off and that was that. He wasn't overly tired, ill or stressed, and it doesn't relate to anything else I can think of. Of course I know it's probably a one-off, but it's been such a long, hard time helping him with so many different issues over the years that now I'm thinking, 'oh no, not that too'. (By 'that' I mean some sort of psychosis/mental health issue, I've had a small amount of work related training on it in the past).
Feeling overwhelmed, tired, inadequate, isolated...sad for me in a bit-selfish-but-human-way but also devastated for him that so much is so hard. Feels like at every turn, year after year, there's always something else and it just goes on and on. Thanks for reading if got this far, just needed to vent and share.... 