Do you ever feel the need...

[pucca]

...to just let out heart wrenching, gut pulling sobs??

I am so tired of fighting everyone and feeling like i have no one on my side.

Yes. DD1 broke my laptop this morning, only cosmetically, I think, but it now has a big piece of the top corner missing. It is my only 'me' thing in the house

So now I have an insurance claim to add to the list of jobs.

I just feel like screaming sometimes, its ok for all these "professionals" who don't have it all to deal with 24/7...the child is just a number to them.

All the time.......was asked to a bbq at weekend didnt go because its really hard work with ds2 (asd non verbal) constantly feel like im saying sorry,for him touching throwing things on the floor ect..then got moaned at for not going people with normal functioning kids just dont understand

Yep, i'm having one of those days/weeks. I'm fed up with having to fight and somedays i feel like giving up , why should we have to fight to get our children the help they need, and i'm fed up of fighting to get a roof over our heads (we are starting our 2nd appeal with the council to prove that dd2 needs a bed room), i'm fed up with fighting with the school to get help for the dd's and i'm fed up of the SENCO telling me 'all will be ok' (what does she know). Also fed up of trying to nappies sorted for dd2 (by the time the send me the right ones she will be toilet trained).

Thats my moaning done, i could go on but i dont want to bore you .

Kieranandalexsmummy...I get you totally on that one, also the stares you get when out in public. I often have to refrain from screaming at judgy old ladies.

Marne...Feel free to rant away we are all singing from a similar hymn sheet afterall.

Definately.. had a moment tonight.. Had bad migraine last couple of days but of course there isn't much chance to stop and rest but was feeling really shit..

Putting ds to bed (NT - he's 6 ) he said to me - 'Know what Mum you're no fun- no fun at all..'

I just welled up and had to go out for a minute to stop myself really losing it.. Felt so upset.

He's right though - I have spent all day everyday with dd for ages since her nursery closed for building works.. It kind of robs you of your sense of humour..

It's going to be a long summer..

I know exactly what you mean about not wanting to go to social events Keiranandalexsmummy- I end up following dd about making sure she doesn't fall over or trash people's houses or eat anything dangerous. Or stick her hand down a strangers top.. ( she has a thing about boobs! Very emabarrassing! )etc, etc..

It's so draining.. I avoid those kind of things now if I can..I never have a chance to talk to any adults so it feels kind of pointless. But that makes you feel so isolated..

I felt I wanted to get back to the distress I felt when talking to ds and have a good cry. Realised there is no-one in RL I could call who would understand and I feel it's just got pushed down now and that's not good..

Anyway I came on here instead as I know you all get it..

Yes

My MIL, god love her, when her DH was terminally ill used to go and sit in the car and scream so her (adult) kids couldn't hear and then go back in and carry on as normal (well except for some excessive cleaning).

Definitely better out than in IMO

Usually when I feel like this I actually just need a really good sleep. I've got better at reading the signs. I used to wait until I fell off the edge of the cliff but now I can see it coming.

Yes

When all my make up got trashed by Ds1, years ago, I cried.

When ds2 overtook ds1 in the socially appropriate behavior stakes, I cried.

When the speech therapist told me i MUST make ds1 sit down and do jigsaws with me to make him concentrate (He was 3.8 with ADHD and ASD) - I cried.

When i got the diagnosis I didn't want but knew he had to have - i cried.

When I had to tell him he won't be going on a school trip and I have to lie and say it's about money rather than my concerns about their ability to supervise him effectively - I cried.

When I decorated the l;iving room so nicely and within a week he had crayoned the exact patterns that he's crayoned on the last time, back onto my beautiful, laboriously painted walls - GOD I cried.

When he tells me he wants to live at daddy's because he loves daddy more, because daddy has tower defence Three - I nod and say "Well, you live here, but you visit daddy", then I go and sit on the loo and cry.

I even cry a little that I seem to get less judged lately, as obviously there is something "Not Quite" about ds1 ...

Colditz

Yep I'm the same to realising that dc same age as ds are miles ahead of him and the gap is getting bigger.and when I look at money and things he needs and yet still need find money fun things to do with my other dc

then hearing little toddlers speak clearly is another or watch them age 2/3 running.Envy of parents that don't have to co ordinate Drs and sort out schooling

Mind watching a dad interacting spending tine with there dc can set me of dd and ds dad walked out wants nothing to do with his own words here with a ret**rd

But do have good cry and try look at postives that ds is more able than some

But yes tiredness is when it's worse

pucca
i get that all the time especially at the local shopping center (the lights and noise set him off) and as you said the judgy old ladies with there "that child needs a good smack" looks i feel like screaming at them (my mum has had words with a few) thought the looks might stop when he got his major pushchair,but ppl look more to see if they can figure out whats worng with him aggggghhhhhhhh