I can't cope in the holidays and I'm facing a week at home.

[colditz]

My house gets demolished unless I'm in the same room as the children at all times.
I'm sitting here sobbing because I went upstairs to clean the toilet and when I came down Ds1 had kicked my clean folded clothes all over the floor. He had just gone through them.
One of them knocked the bathroom bin over and there were pull ups all over the floor, just left there.

On any given hour of any given day, ds1 has scattered tiny pieces of paper all over everywhere.

I can't keep UP! And it's making me so, so unhappy. my washer's on it'[s last legs - life would be easier if I didn't have to spin everything after I washed it. The pots get left for days because evry time I leave the room at home something happens - a fight breaks out and ds2 ends up with a nose bleed, or they start sliding things down the bannisters - I bought them the iCoaster last week to try to give them something to touch but while they love it, it causes more fights that it's worth.

I'm so, so disorganised, there's piles of stuff everywhere, just 'stuff'. i'm missing appointments, Ds1's psych nurse is going on about ADHD Solutions but tbh I can't ever seem to get round to ringing them and I just don't feel able to add any more 'people' into our apointment list. "School" things go home with their dad, more often than not, and I nevr see them again so I miss sports days, assemblies, Ds1 of course doesn't tell me about any of this, he assumes I know. he doesn't understand that I don't know until I am told.

Last week we saw The occupational therapist, psychiatric nurse, Autism outreach and I had to fill in a supporting statement for Ds1's school and I had to do a 24 hour shift at work and then I come home to an absolute shit tip this morning and I burst into tears.
In the evenings, it takes an hour to put them both to bed, each trip to the toilet needs to be supervised, there aren't enough places to put everything so it's out of reach, I've just fitted a padlock bar to the kitchen door and a timer onto the comptuer and it makes my house look like it's been adapted to contain chimps.

It's dirty, unkempt, falling to pieces and untidy,cluttered, cramped and I cannot ever seem to find enough hours in the day to make even one room really nice and so I hide on here while they trash the house around me.

I have forgotten the concept of 'day off' - you know, when you were 19 and you got two 'dAYS OFF' work in which you did things that you wanted to do. My life revolves around other people, and I am gradually losing the will to carry on because it seems insurmountable.

I actually, right now, want to go back to work where I have a reasonable boss and my workload is managable, which my life doesn't seem to be. I have to be twice as alert, go twice as fast, for twice as long - at home. I am losing my ability to be assertive, I am losing

for anyone who doesn't know me, I'm a single muma and have a 7 year old with ADHD and Aspergers/ASD and a NT 4 year old. I work as a support worker.

Please someone tell me what you do. tell me how you stay afloat ... because I'm sinking under piles of dirty crap, bits of paper, pots, washing and 'things'

Aw colditz dont feel sorry for offloading,i share your frustration, today on day 1 of the holiday DD (ASD) has unravelled my knitting to give to the cats cos she saw an advert where they were playing with wool,has tried strangling the cats (hugging she says)
has climbed out of the front room window,
painted the windowsill with nail varnish and taken money out of my purse and hidden it as i told her i needed to save up for a holiday so shes doing it for me.

i couldnt cope with working as well and take my hat off to you, stickers are working a little bit with my DD and pounds for the pound shop, dont know if that might help and today both my neices came round and decluttered both my DC bedrooms DS has AS and is a hoarder,cos i was crying the other day over how i couldnt cope,would that be an option maybe a friend or member of the family helping you?

ouryve how old is your child ?

He's recently turned 4. I gave him a hot cross bun, the other day and he sat on the floor, rested it on his nappy [hurk] and picked out all the fruit to eat. If he accidentally drops some food on the floor, the rest HAS to follow!

hey mines just turned 4 too and still in nappies she would never try a hot cross bun very restricted diet what about your son?

DS1's diet is limited but, apart from veg, quite balanced. There are days when he would live on peanut butter toast, yoghurt (actually with lumps, or else he gags because it's too smooth) and chips and nothing else, but we keep pushing his boundaries. Sweet bready things full of dried fruit are usually a safe bet and if you try to share a cinnamon and raisin bagel with him, it's good idea to hide with your portion or else he'd mug you for it! He's developed a love of fig rolls and fruitus bars, too!

ouryve ah he sounds great,we are limited to weetabix fromage frai milky bars pringles and tin spag bol or sweet potato mashed with cheese. The later are never wanted we have to play and quickly spoon it in .Very small for age now got to 31/lb feeding clinic waste of time

Colditz, hope the holiday is going better. I too get very stressed by our um compact house. We are lucky enough to be able to holiday in a spacious but rather bare holiday home and it is so nice to spread out. When we get back I always struggle!