tired of it

[Phoenix4725]

Tired of having to fight for everything and do everything knowing that its all comes down to me

Fed up hassling the lea for school placement, Tired of chasing up to get ds back under all the servieces he uses

Got a garden taht really needs time and money spent on it make it useable think nettles and weeds and brambles and i have neither

Tired of doing all the above and the fecking housework and looking after dc and doing all ds therapies and to top it of the washing machienes now died but can not afford another one atm and already asked family fund for driving lessons so cant ask them

Just want to run away from it all love all my dc but so fed up and want to yell what about me

Sorry you're feeling

Time to get out of the house for a coffee somewhere? Is there a RL friend you can drop in on - with your washing?

I have done washing for friends in the same situation - is there someone you can ask?

Failing all that, is there a woodland nearby you can run into for 5 mins and SCREAM VERY LOUDLY?
(believe me, its very therapeutic!)

not normally one to giving in but its just been nonstop since January know rhe move was right for ds as were in better house better leisure facilites he can access , sn clubs etc

But its just all the waiting and fighting and then have to balance my other nt dc as well and all without no money and ds orthtics rubbing him but who knows how long bwfore nhs picks him up again

Think just all come home as ds is having bad day he has a cold and is whiney plus its pretty clear hes having a apain day which always makes it worse and hes not sleeping then feel bad for snapping at him its not his fault and a shitty new gp that wont help just says well you just ned to get on with it

but its sheer loneness thats getting me cant even hand kids over to a dp or a dh say your turn i need a break , feeling the strain of being a single parent on top of everything

dont know anyone here just moved and nearest shop is couple miles away ironic theres enough countryside for me to go scream but cant leave dc am currently hiding in room while pull self together ds are watching cbeebies

Well, tackle the things you CAN change - the washing? - ask someone, seriously, people are usually keen offer help, so here is an ideal opportunity to let them. Think of it as a way to establish the friendship?

And plan something for when they've all gone to bed? Have you a favourite DVD? Something to look forward to?

You have my sympathies, I have a dp but he is often away (he's just come back from 2 weeks in China) but that's nothing like being on your tod 24/7.

If you can leave them long enough to go to the loo, then that's long enough for a scream in the woods?

I'm sorry I'm not your neighbour - I'd come and help.

yeah i know kick up arse needed think washing machiene just tipped the balance today was hoping start saving little bit to start work on the garden and

had planned on taking younger dc to paradise park next week as a treat and pay for ds2 to do a subaqua class hes wanted to do for long time and its been tough on ds1 and ds2 moving away from the area they always known both been so good about it knowing its the best thing for ds3 and dd.

i have no neighbours litteraly , why i love the house so much no more worrying about the noise nearest neighbours 100 yards up the lane

But going find wellies and get ds in his chair and go for a walk sod the housework and will try tackle one thing at a time when get back

no im in East herts

lol i tried the loo thing but ds found me buy default yelling umme then falling over and crying ,

But thank you all for listerning to me whinge just needed to get it of my chest and dont know anyone here in rl

Enjoy your walk!

We have no neigbours too - its great, dc's can make as much noise as they like.

sorry your feeling so run down with it all you know where i am if you need me i still have same mob number just give yourself some breathing time go for walk clear your head and then get on with what you feel you can do little bit at a time you will get there

and if you want to talk just message me xx

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bubblagirl have lost number phone was stolen when staying at mums along with computer car etc

Leonie hope your feeling better

and yep the walk helped and the sunshine to put everything on back boiler now till dc back to school

I remember you over on property and I totally understand where you are. We moved in December and dh was made redundant in Feb. We've not had a change in services, thank god, but we've had a major misdiagnosis chucked at us and the result of that is mental numbers of appointments and more investigations. I think our garden is like yours, you might have a bit more if you have nettles, we have bare earth!!! Its a nightmare. Our washing machine is outside and I've given up on all but the filthy stuff for now.

The way forward I've found is to tackle 1 thing in the house one thing at a time. I'm currently hooked on freecycle. You can get so much stuff on there, including washing machines.

As for getting all his services back, go and bang on the gp's door and maybe call the old paed?

I'm not local to you but I'm here and I totally understand the strain that the last few months have done. I'm sat here thinking can I just maybe have a lie in tomorrow, not get up, slob in bed and ignore the house, garden and all the hospital appointments we've had this week and have coming up next week. I know in reality I will get up and tackle the day in just the same way as you will.

wish I had seent his ealier I would have offered a cuppa as waited in for gas man today
As for washing machine, in east herts there is a CVS scheme that provide cheap household items, just look up CVS herts should come up. Or there is a few charities i know of you can ask, will fine details when i go into work on tues if it helps.
I have plans to go to willows farm with the girls on Friday next week if you fancy meeting?? I promise, Im sort of normal

Thank you

Lol at sort of normal ,not even sure where willows farm is but sounds good to me and will look up cvs to

rebel the house is fantastic size wise and safe and suitable for ds no stairs to fall down and ,he's really mad about trains and we can see the crossing so in his element so anyone on standsted express or London to Cambridge line please wave and he's made friends with the guys that use yard at back to there currently got his sit in toy truck in there workshop to repair for him

but found I do have a patio out back now was buried under the grass and dirt just trying to work up strenth to start digging up front garden decided way cheaper do myself than pay someone .then will tackle back

lie in forgot what that is but woot today ds and dd are of out on a trip with Sn club I get all day of just ds1 and ds2 home but there teens so long as feed them won't see them much

How about a gardening party... friends and family come and dig for the day?
you should be able to find some gardening tools on freecycle.

Sadly my only family left is my mum and step dad who both hold down full time jobs as well as caring for his mum

and when left last area thanks to idiotic xh causing problems by his lifestyle choices I made hard choice other than one person to disappear completley just walked away with from everything had built up over 12 years

But on plus side will be putting ds1 and ds2 to work on it to hmm think I'll be supervisor

I have days when I could scream or sometimes I do cry. I havent got much help around me. My family lives abroad, so they no help. My hubbys family close by, but in-laws are old and cant be bothered with kids. Sister-in-law always busy although she doesnt work and have to make appointment with her to spend some time with her and her daughter ( my daughter`s cousin).
I feel very isolated at times.

willows farm in just past Hatfield, neat london conely. If you look it up on google. Its great fun but a little costly, but if you can find a local paper or back of a morrisons reciept they have voucher for free children with every adult.
Maybe see you there if your up for it

Will google it shortly took ds1 and ds2 out for lunch was good to spend some time with them they often get overlooked and have been so good about everything big mistake having cider with lunch now need to sleep it of thank god dd and ds3 not back till 6 pm

how old are your LOs?
My eldest is 7 and little one is 2 1/2.
Not sure what your nearest Children centre is, but we have a lot on at ours over holidays.

dd is 7 and ds3 is 5 in July also have ds1 16 next month and ds2 whose 13

offically its sawbridgeworth but they run zilch atm just getting going .dd and ds3 are out saturday club in bishop stortford normally morning but they taken kids out all day hence my indulgence at lunchtime

lisaasd

woke up enough to google willow farm looks good but to hard to get to on train certainly this holidays am in process of learning to drive

but if you want to meet up another time let us know

well where can you get too, thats good for you and kids? I can drive my tank anywheres