Thank you for your help Scummymummy and Lou33, I think the combination of previous life events and my MIL being an ex-teacher have whipped me into a frenzy. Maybe if I give you some more background info, which I've always been worried of doing even on here.
When ds1 was born, he was big, 10lbs 5ozs, head 38cm. We had to have a consultant waiting outside 'just in case', it was quick a quick birth and his head was very red and patchy for quite a while after his birth.
When he was almost 4 months we found a watery lump on the side of his head, in a blind panic we rushed him to the emergency doctor at the hospital, then onto x-ray etc. The doctor on call that night couldn't see anything on the x-ray, and said they would keep him in and we could go home in the morning.
Well we did leave the hospital, but 2 weeks later! The day after admission we were accussed of harming him, he had a hairline fracture about 3 cms in length going up from about a cm above his ear. We could not believe what was happening, not helped when all the health staff around us were saying they didn't think we had done anything, except for one evil doctor (!). One nurse actually said to us, they like to pick on 'our' sort, namely white, middle class and well educated.
Well to cut a long story short, we were accussed and had to prove our innocence, we had our own expert who said he believed it had happened at birth and the swelling could have happened at any time, but social services didn't agree, and placed him on a 1 year supervision order, it could have been worse, i know.
So here we are now he is 4 and a half, and when he was diagnosd with the low muscle tone I was of course asked if he had had any previous medical problems, I said yes and explained, this has now ended up on the report which has now been seen by the OT and EP, and this is I guess the main root of my fear.
I'm scared that the EP is going to come here, and be looking at more than just his problems, looking deeper, do you understand? We can't go through it again, it almost ripped us apart before.
I doubt that any of you have had an experience like this, I hope not for your own sanity, but this is my problem. And of course my MIL is just went into a complete flap when she heard about it.
I'm sorry I've waffled, any advice or ideas are so welcome!
I just guess I'm asking for you to be postive whihc you have been, thank you, only Mumsnet can help, yet again!