I am banging my head up against the wall with DH and DS and I am seriously about to walk away

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i dont know what I am about to walk away from.

But I feel an urge to flee just anywhere at all.

DS is so bloody autistic no offence meant but honestly I have no normality with him anymore at all. DH thinks from what he's read that DS cant be ASD because he is so chatty and sometimes has great days, mad, funny etc.

Of coruse we are still waiting for DX surprise surprise we still havent heard back from CAHMS who were supposed to see us "early July" but I will be astounded if anyone says he is not ASD as I can find no other plausible explanation for the living hell we are usually in.

How can I get DH and I on the same page, example when DS freaks out over the wrong cup I think just give him the right cup DH thinks we are reinforcing habits/behaviours. Roll that out a hundred times. I feel like we will never agree and never know what to do.

DH seems to still think ASD means more rainman type children and without transferring into his brain all I have absorbed here I just dont know what to do. I am at a loss.

no problem. offer is always open, if you find yourselves able.

Nobody lives in the North East. I want a visit from someone

HIDTL, my DH was the same when we were going thorugh the whole dx for DS2, and for about 6 months after that. He still doesn't "understand" about DS2's little quirkie things and thinks I give in too easily with him. But sometimes it is just easier allowing them to eat with the blue spoon/wear those colour shoes all the time/only eat weetabix for breakfast and nothing else. Like someone already said, you can't give into all their wants, but sometimes it makes life easier doing it.

I dont have any personal joy at the moment.

I am desperate to be given a recognised job in journalism, that would be such a huge personal achievement for me. But beyond that at the moment I feel like I am here to serve and I am tired of my life.

Bishop's Waltham - do you know where that is?

You need some "you" time HIDTL. Coffee with a friend, walk in the park, something that you can do without your DS, an not during the time he is at school. Get your DH to look after him and get yourself out there. It'll do you the world of good.

I am working out of the house 3 or 4 nights a week for some extra money. I did go out with a new friend last night and that was the first evening out alone in years. It just isnt enough anymore. I am struggling to see the good, through the necessary.

I dont know where bishops waltham is lou were you asking me?

no hidtl you are not a shit mother its ashit system that ment to help our dc but does not

Sorry HIDTL, no, it's a little town near Southampton.

ah

think I should probably go to bed. doesnt mean anything necessarily though.