i was also going to say how old is dd?
its always a shock to find out there may be something wrong but it also opens alot of doors from knowing this which can only ever benefit the child in the long run as early intervention is always best
it will take you a while to accept but you do and you will as your child is your child regardless and you love them regardless
my ds was dx at 3 and he is 4 now huge difference in him from when he was dx and i accepted pretty much straight away as new from 2 there was something not right he was speech delayed and had few other things i couldn't put my finger on that wasn't right
but it helped to understand him better and i became a better mummy for it as i didnt get so frustrated trying to get him to act and dot hings nt children would do i learnt to accept him and be proud of everything he could do
its great on here for advise but you could also look into any sn groups in your area that hold courses for parents and children also good for play so children can be around others and for you to have someone to socialise with who will understand you
DLA can provide extra income to pay for any additional help you may need to pay out for or to buy any educational items for child
here
hope you are feeling ok? i was pretty roller coaster until real dx was down on paper and then it wasa case of just making sure i was doing all i could to help and understand ds as difficult as he can be he is my little buddy nothing changed he is still my adorable boy