Had a really grim dream - warning, sensitive

[r3dh3d]

Sorry if this is a bit close to the bone for anyone. And of course it's just a dream and I do realise how lucky we are that for us it is just a dream iyswim.

Anyway, in my dream DD1 died in the night. Epilepsy, of course. I went in to get her up as I always do - and it was all just really vivid. How she looked and felt. How cold she was. Phoning the ambulance (it just seemed to be something you had to do, even though I knew she was dead iyswim). Standing in the doorway not being able to do anything to help while the paramedics were trying to rescus. Etc etc. And DH just losing it and breaking down completely.

And DD2 wanting to know what was happening, and having to explain ...

I don't believe in premonitions or anything, it's not that - but I can't get it out of my head.

Has anyone else had this? I mean sad/catastrophic dreams related to their child's condition? And was it a one-off or was it a bit of a phase? If this turns into one of those recurring dreams it's going to be pretty awful.

poor you.

Yes, I've had this - usually one about J being run over, or falling out of windows or off cliffs, probably because he has no sense of danger and runs off a lot.

It goes in phases - it's usually related to something that happened that day, something unsafe.

I found that it was waking me up in tears, so started to keep happy photos by my bed to look at before I went to sleep (or to cheer me up if it happened).

Hope it stops for you.

R3 Hope you can shake off the feelings left by your dream.
I have had similar dreams - usually relevent to my worries of the time. Currently is not being able to find ds as this has happened several times - he used to be a real runner and does not understand danger. But I had dreams similar to yours after his first seizure- fortunately it was a fairly short phase! Sometimes I suspect dreams are my way of coping with rl worries.

I have alsorts of really disturbing dreams that I can't even explain, but are definately horrible and very, very vivid.

But I have nice ones too....

I go through phases of bad dreams, usually reflecting stresses and strains of the day, even if that's not immediately obvious to me.

Hoping it was just a one off.....

R3 - huge hugs.
Actually I've had dreams about terrible things happening to DD (She has nothing physically wrong with her, but can't communicate well so I worry about what happens when I'm not there to interpret.) I think it's just part of being a parent and worrying about your kids, and so much worse when your daughter does have a serious condition like epilepsy. Really hope you have better dreams tonight!

Oh R3, it is so hard to shake off that feeling after that kind of dream.

I have had them usually to do with hospitals, and sending him off for an operation and the surgeons coming back and telling me he didn't make it. I had this particular one loads in the last six months since his last big op, when instead of the nurse coming to get us to go and see ds2 in recovery the surgeon came to talk to us. In those few moments, I just thought he's dead. Very poorly was like a message from the Gods.

I think when you have stared down the barrel of that particular gun it is impossible to ever forget the feeling and it plays on our subconcious and relived in our dreams.

(((hugs)))

These dreams are horrible. I have the epilepsy one, and the not waking up from the GA one. I wake up with my heart pounding. They are horrible, and seem so very real when you are having them xxx

How horrible for you . I haven't had anything as bad, but have had a few dreams about DS2 just running off into the distance and being unable to chase him. And one where DS1 followed him and they both disappeared.
Always wake up in a panic.

If I ever have these dreams, ds2 is always on public transport, he either gets left on a bus/metro or he gets on them without me and I stay behind. Makes me fearful that it will actually happen one day.

I think it is our inner fears coming out to play in our dreams, because it is our real worst nightmare.

mine are where the children (usually all 5) are at one end of a; beach, jetty, wall, etc and Im at the other with MA-HOOOOOO-SIVE great big crashing waves between us that are any moment going to wash my children away .

its really horrid, to you, i know how upset i feel when i have mine.