My DS (11) has just been recommended for AS Dx. (low spectrum)
He has the most awful rages and has just had one. It is mostly verbal at the moment. Does anyone experience these and just struggle sometimes to put it into perspective of their DC's problems and just want to howl?
I know he doesn't mean the things he says and try to be calm and calm him down but I just wanted to cry cos I needed a quiet day without an outburst, and where do you find the strength to keep going in circle knowing it is going to be an uphill struggle to achieve any thing close to normality?
His Dad and I are separating and I am a mess as it is. DD (6) mimicks his behaviour, but no other concerns about her.
When he calms down he will talk like a 2/3 year old that has had smarties and coca-colA.
He is excellent in new surroundings but as he starts to relax becomes more like the true self we know. For example he has started having outbursts at clubs, where before, with the novelty value, he was 'safe'.
The kids poke fun at him, get him wound up and then laugh at him. He was beyond comfort tonight.
I tried to get him help at many stages, the saddest being when we got very close, and the specialist signed him off. He was then retired due to malpractice and my Son's mentor said they were doing a lot of work now with children who had seen the man. 5 years of emotional battles because no one would listen. .
Walking away from cricket tonight with him screaming at everybody, in his own personal misery, with his 'friends' laughing at him broke my heart.
It gets broken a lot.
At least maybe now we might get the support he needs and something to work on instead of wondering what I have done wrong all the time.
Sorry, tired and emotional...but it helped to offload a little.