come and calm me down, am pregnant and worried and I need friends.

[Hangingbellyofbabylon]

dd2 stopped moving at 35 weeks and somehow my intuition dragged me off to hospital, she somehow survived but does have CP.If left to the health professionals she'd be dead, it was only my insistence that kept her alive. We were so close to losing her.

I'm now pregnant again - 18 weeks and the anxiety is piling in. I haven't felt the baby move today and it's killing me. I worried that whatever nearly killed my dd will get this baby too.

I don't give two hoots if this baby has SN at all but I need this baby to be alive. I just cannot cope with the idea of losing this baby who I love so much.

The midwife is good and says they will monitor me closely later in the pregnancy but I'm only 18 weeks and already the worry is setting in. No-one in real life gets it, no-one knows how it feels to be so close to losing my dd. They all think I'm worried about having another baby with SN but I'm not.

I'm also having to have a blood test on monday as have been exposed to slapped cheek. It's just one thing too much. Sorry, I know I should post on pregnancy but this is the only place that feels like home .

Hangingbellyofbabylon, I am glad they will let you come in for monitoring. Has thast helped you feel a little better?

Long term though, maybe some counselling would help?

I am one to talk though as I was convinced either ds2 or I would die (he is my third too) I think it is the unfortunate situation of having 'too much' information. DD (my eldest) has a undiagnosed disability so they basically give you a 1in10 chance of happening again as 'they don't know' ! Which really was not reassuring at all. So i know how you feel, if that helps?

I'm so pleased you got seen

Glad the hospital were so understanding HBOB, and even better they are giving you open access. At least you have the reassuarnce from hearing your baby's heartbeat.

How are you today? Are you getting a blood test today?

My baby stopped moving for about a week at this age. I was worried enough to start a thread about it, and a number of women came forwards to say theirs had done the same thing at the same stage. Mine starting moving perceptibly again after a week and is now bouncing happily around on my innards (am 23 weeks).

pleased to read this update hangingbelly and hope yr feeling a little calmer. Its very sad that you cannot be all blissful and ignorant like you prolly was first time round but entirely understandable and natural given yr circumstances. Would you be able to start some 'nice' pg thing - yoga or something? Not suggesting for a minute this will make everything all calm and lovely but might help a teeny tiny bit? I found it useful anyway. Even if it was just for that hour I wasn't fretting.

And duchesse - wow. Chuffed to read you are pg I remember you from the hut (a while ago - different username)

pixie- thanks! I know- not quite believing it myself yet.

thanks duchesse and pixie - the little blighter seems to have woken up a bit tonight so am hoping things will settle down a bit.