I'm 17 weeks pregnant and have the same midwife as last time with dd2. Dd2 stopped moving at 35 weeks, went to maternity unit and my midwife sent me in an ambulance to the other local hospital with instructions to deliver dd straight away as the trace was basically pathological. However, the hospital monitored me for a futher 10 hours and even sent me out for a long walk before there was a change of shift and the new consultant took one look at the notes and ordered an immediate emergency c-section.
No follow up after birth and no paediatric follow-up for dd. Cut to 8 months later when I started the fuss and several months later when dd was finally diagnosed with cerebral palsy at 13 months.
So since then every ounce of my strength and time has been focused on dd and I had managed to not think to much about the birth.
When I saw my midwife a few weeks back she was shocked - she did know they left me for a long time but didn't know about dd's CP. She feels that it must be followed up. The paed has told us that she thinks the cp was caused by whatever stopped her moving the day before the c-section but of course there is no proof that is wasn't caused by leaving her for all of those extra hours. Also she says that even if we take the CP out of the equation then we still need to do something about the fact that their failure to deliver dd almost resulted in her death as her traces were so pathological.
I don't know how I feel - midwife suggested requesting my notes which I have done but guess what? my notes have gone missing... there's a possibilty that they are in transit between hospitals but I'm very cynical.
I have read that starting the legal process is long and arduous and basically takes over your life. I just don't know if I'm ready or willing to go down that route but I do feel that I need answers and someone ultimately is responsible for ignoring the advice of my midwife and leaving dd in an awful state for over 10 hours.
Sorry, this is long. It's been playing on my mind for a few weeks and I just don't have anyone is RL who has even a vague idea of the emotions and implications that all of this means.
Anyone with experience / advice? thanks.