Some days I do wonder if there's something going on in my head...

[XmasLollipopViolet]

Had a rotten morning so far. Huge row with my granddad (I live with mum, grandma, granddad and disabled uncle) because I'd mislaid my bus pass and someone's got to give me a lift home from uni.Anyway, that's now been found and my gran is going to pick me up.

But this row was awful, started out about how I can never find anything because my room is a tip (it's not THAT bad, a few things on the bed/floor). It always has been, every time I tidy up, I lose something, have to find it then I'm back where I started.

It then went something like this:

GD: No wonder you can never find things. They won't replace your bus pass you know, you'll have to report it stolen. You really don't care about your room...
Me: I really don't want to get into a row on the way to uni thanks.
GD: goes on about having to drive through traffic each morning you should just move into halls.
Me: Fine, I will.
GD: Don't be so stupid, you couldn't cope.
Me: Yes I could.
GD: No you couldn't.
Me: Yes I could!
GD: Doing your own cooking, washing? All you can do is make coffee.
Me: I can do a lot more than that.
GD: Whatever...

The rest of the journey was silent, and I went to accomodation at uni and got some prices. I could move in this week, but I'm going to see what the reception at home is like before I make a choice.

But I always get SO ANGRY when people row with me....I can't really make friends well, I'm not organised, hate loud noises, hate crowds.....

Sometimes I do wonder if something's up with me...

Sorry to post this here, but I feel secure that you won't flame me too much (If I put this anywhere else I'd be eaten alive!)

Chin up, babe. What a rotten start to the day. I hate rows too - always end up crying - with anger, not upset.
Rows happen everywhere - they'll still happen in halls (I remember it well!),
Are you happy at home otherwise? Or do you think this is a symptom of you wanting more independance?
I don't make friends easily but can honestly say my time at uni was one of the best times of my life. I made friends for life and despite us being dotted all around the country, we are still in touch, 12 yrs on!
Hopefully it'll all be forgotten by the time you get home. But, if you decide to move out, do it coz you want to, not to prove a point to GD.

lollie I seem to remember you are young(17?) if that is right, a lot of this is being a teen. ds is 16 and hates rows. if me and his dad argue he gets upset. and if I have a go at him, well he is gone.

oh and didn't you post about making freinds with a girl with cp?
so you do make freinds. don't sell your self short

Actually 2shoes, I'm 19 But yeah, I do make friends, just takes a while. All seems Ok so far, so for now, I'm home!

sorry
I am still old enough to be your mum.
glad you feel better,
are you on Face book?

I am, although I'm careful of who I add now cos my mum's on there too! Actually, quick hijack and question, my friend with cp had a bone scan a while ago and it revealed 3 ankle fractures (cue lots of time in hosp/plaster). How can one, who doesn't do a lot of walking (hardly any) break her ankle in 3 places? Maybe you'll know cos we sure don't!

oh dear, this happened to a girl I hear about on my school group.she has.....
I wish I could spell it ostypeosous is how it sounds.

lollipopviolet: have you ever had someone from rehabilitation/mobility training to come and sort out your room/home to make it easier for you to keep track of things?

if you were to move out you could also get this type of training to make sure you felt more confident and independent.

it's awful being disorganised isn't it?! i usually feel that i'm making my life twice as hard because everything is chaos around me! if it makes you feel any better about your mobility card, i'm on my 16th issue (count em!) of my bank card. losing stuff is a daily occurence in my life.

Hmm, they did ask at my DSA assessment if organisation was affected. I said I didn't think it was disability related. Although...sight problem, could be? I might go and talk to them again. At least things are back to normal home wise so I no longer have to worry.

the rehab people should have good ideas about how best to organise things to make them easier to find (even if you are just a naturally disorganised person!) i'd make use of them if you get the chance - epsecially if (when) you really do decide to move out. when you take THAT big step, you want things to go as smoothly as possible, so a little help with organisation wouldn't hurt.