I know it must seem so OTT but I really thought someone was going to die tonight. My dd appears to have a sensory processing disorder which is literally killing us. I really am despairing and don't know what to do. I'm SOOO unimaginably tired it's unbelieveable. I can't think straight!!! I felt like either I would inflict her some serious harm tonight or I would end it for myself just to get some peace.....seriously I've contemplated it just because I'm SOOOOO tired. I need a break
DD doesn't understand fear, pain, tiredness. She can sleep hardly at all and still be wide awake and hyperactive the next day. She wakes up in the night after just a few hours and will be wide awake. There's not even a fear of smacking as she doesn't feel pain or understand the concept of fear. The fking NHS has a ridiculous waiting list and keeps fobbing us off with the therapy we need so we're having to pay privately which is crippling our finances. Above all else a sensory processing disorder is not a recognised condition in the UK.
To top everything off I found a lump in my breast a few weeks ago and tests have been inconclusive so now need a biopsy. Life is so sht