just need to rant

[bubblagirl]

no one need reply i just need to let off some steam

ds full opf cold terrible tantrums morning till night cant talk to him he just freaks out at me threw himself on floor outside shop yesterday tried to run into main road several times would not hold my hand would not listen to me

stropped all the way through to bedtime would not eat woke in night decided it was time to be up took hours to get him off to sleep few bribes animal bar milky bar and banana had to force him to my room so i can keep an eye on him as bnot well myself and so so tired

today strops all morning has to have it all his way or no way doesnt want to do what i ask then does want to do it once ive done it so pulls all back out to do it again himself

wants to direct me to town and if i dont go his way he creates

music therapy he doesnt want teacher to sing doesnt want to play instruments does want to play them whole half hour of crying stropping and he did manage to have some fun luckily other little boy also ASD was in same temprement today

my head hurts i could cry im tired his now watching film snuggled in bed bless him i love him dearly but dont like these days when i feel i have no control and am at a loss

rant over thank you for listening lol you dont need to reply just needed to let it all out now i can go relax as i feel i have spoke to someone who understands as have no one else i vcan talk to apart from other little boys mum except shes as frazzled as me today

goodness ouryve sounds like one of my days my ds has had sickness bug so think the run up to it and the tiredness was the cause

but still he has become quite set in his ways like having to see a train on walk to pre school because we saw one one morning

walking around the same poles as he saw another child do this we didnt have any routines and now becoming more obvious although not in the home just outside of it

it is such hard work and i try to talk to my friends and they cut you off with oh yes xx had tantrum last night or xx ytook 30 mins to settle to bed

hardly the same as wild tantrum because you havent gone in right direction or train hasnt arrived i use the dont forget the trains may still be asleep now and then he seems happy with that

just glad i have people on here that understand eiother the lack of speech or sleep or obsessions othewrwise id feel so alone with it thanks to you all xx

well today i pick him up from pre school and apparantly been hitting and kicking he has never had this temprement in his life im so shocked and feel so sorry for him

he only pushes if children push him or hit him he holds hand out to keep them away as has no concept of telling them its not nice or to move etc

he then apparently kicked the teacher when she asked him to say sorry he has never ever kicked i think maybe someone had got him first as he come out with red mark and bruise on his head so maybe that was his way of trying to keep away and to have his own space and maybe her forcing him to say sorry he waves arms and legs about when needing to be alone so maybe he caught her

he has never done this and never seen him try to so im shocked

he then proceeded to throw himself on the floor on way home and would not move i had to carry wriggly screaming child home it was hard work

i hope he isnt going to stya acting up like this especially pre school i am just so shocked that he would have done this unless he was picked on first as he gets frightened if hit or pushed and then tries to get away holdinga rm out to try and keep others away from him

poor thing i would hate for him to become a target and then labelled the bully

roll on one to one if we get any as then at least they can help him in these situations